A7X: Part of you 2/2

"Making your being uncomfortable?", you repeat laughing and I snort. I have drinked few beers too much, so I allow myself speak weirdly. Other unusual things I have to drive out of my mind immediately, or things will go to completely wrong direction.  I should get up and walk away, when I still can. If I take one more step, I will surely stay whole night. I know that staying is a bad option, even though it tempts right now. Inappropriate things, lines of prohibited list. You, in the first line, biggest temptation.  Worst trap set in front of me, and time after time I fall, loving to repeat my mistake. Over and over again, because you refuse to stop the game that just started in my mind, you want to see how it ends.

We meant to stop doing this long time ago, but when would we listen even each others wise decicions? When could we, because after awhile,  we will come back together, because we need these moments. Each others. You bend your finger alluringly, and my chances to escape are gone. I come back to my former place against your warm body, and your kiss, propably only thing that will mark you as careful, begs me to stay. Always so insecure, it reminds me of our first kiss. Then, an eternity ago, you have drinked too much, and kissing your friend seem like a great idea. Countless kisses after that, always these careful ones, one of the most fascinating features of you. You show only to me how afraid you are to open up yourself, to let anyone that close. You are afraid of being left alone, I taste desperation.
I answer without words: "I will always stay with you - always, Jimmy, where ever you go - because part of you lives in my heart, part of me in yours. I refuse to never let go."